I am so glad I finally got my heater out of the attic... a warmer night's sleep here I come! Last night was pretty terrible... I had 3 fleece blankets under my covers with me and I was wearing a fleece bathrobe. And I hate wearing socks to bed... it just feels weird.

It's 2 am, yet I still really want to stay up and watch the second part of Alice. Or I could just go to bed now and wake up earlier tomorrow and watch it then... decisions decisions. Oh hell, we all know that I'm watching it tonight. Still, no sleeping in tomorrow. I've got to prepare myself for waking up early on Thursday for work.

So I found out recently at work that the food manager had actually been stealing hours from nutrition and giving them to grocery. Sure our hours were cut back, but they weren't cut back as much as we had been told. How fucked up is that? Here we are, scrambling for hours, working our asses off to get everything done in much less time than we need and we could have had more hours this whole time? I don't think that will happening much anymore now that Michelle has started talking to the store director about it. Maybe they will even start letting Michelle write the schedules? That would be so much better because I know Michelle feels the same way Raina and I do about our days off. I just want a weekend every now and then! And I want to be able to request a day off without the fear of losing hours simply because it isn't on one of my regular days off.

Blah, time for late night snack and Andrew-Lee Potts playing Hatter in Alice... <3

Damn you creepy dudes... I didn't like you in high school, I didn't like you after high school... I sure as heck don't like you now.

The perils of single life... do I have a new internet stalker? God, I hope not.

Grrrrrrr......

Yup, it sure is... I've been really tired all day, but wouldn't you know, as soon as I get upstairs and in my chill zone, I'm wide awake. Gotta work at 7 am! Oh well, Black Friday is actually really boring for me at work. No one wants food or vitamins after their Thanksgiving food comas!

Tomorrow night Mike is having a party... methinks it shall be good times! Now I'm really glad I bought two new Nerf Mavericks.

In other news, Bree had her ultrasound and they found that it's going to be a boy. I'm going to have another nephew! The name so far is Corey Danger Jones. The Danger is just a place holder though. :-( I am hoping that they decide to stick with Danger. How awesome would that be? :-P Bree was showing us the ultrasound pics today too. He looks so much like Damien in one of them!

Well anyway... I have a Chase telling me I need to get offline and get into bed so I can try and sleep.

Work it work... it's the holidays... it's lame. But my boss loves me, so that's good! :-P The tables have officially turned on Raina, which is another plus. Hard work speaks for itself, and that's something she hasn't quite figured out yet.

Yesterday I found a new coffee shop (new to me) to go to in downtown Vancouver that has a nice laid-back atmosphere and yummy crepes. It was also fun hanging out with Adam. Aaaaand I bought a big flowery mumu for a dollar. haha I just had to cause it was only a dollar. It kinda looks like a nightgown from hell on me though. :-P I think I want to turn it into something, maybe give it a neckline and change the sleeves and shorten it a bit? I will need help though.

Last night was pretty great too... had another date with Chase. Something about him... he just sort of wows me. I like him a lot, but I do still intend on not getting into a relationship for a while. I am enjoying getting to know Chase and so far things are going quite well.

Now tonight, well, New Moon is coming out. I managed to con Jordan into going with me. Things there seem to be going well. We're maintaining a pretty good friendship and I'm glad for that. I don't want those awkward run-ins at any point... though this may all change once I eventually do start exclusively dating someone else, but I will hope that by the time that happens, Jordan has gotten past things. :-/ hmm...

Anyways, gotta go off and buy my movie tickets before it gets much later... and have Alex put in my headlight bulb.

Last night was fun and weird... Fun was hanging out with Derick and beating him at pool. Fun was following a bunch of people to an after hours party with a bonfire in the back yard. Weird was how much Mike was coming on to me and trying to make out with me. He was of the drunken variety that they were trying to get to leave. It was good times though, and a really drama free crowd! At least last night, I don't know these people well enough to make further speculation. I had a mini nerd-off challenge with some girl... I won based on the Ninja Turtles Jacket, Sailor Moon bag, Star Wars t-shirt, Transformer's belt buckle, Domo pouch and of course my trusty Sonic Screwdriver.

Blah, don't want to work today. I'm scheduled at 4, but yesterday Michelle said I should call because she might want me to come in early. I set my alarm for noon figuring I would call then because the earliest I would come in would be 1 and work 8 hours, but I just shut the alarm off and dozed for another hour. Now it's almost 2... maybe I should call soon. *shrug* Will I have time to eat something if I call now?

Apparently I have a headlight out... need to fix this! Maybe Tuesday after work? Wednesday daytime? Alex, there's a Viso in it for you if you wanna pop in a new bulb for me real quick! Otherwise I'm sure I can get Frank to do it. Well, I guess I should get up and get dressed and call work now...

Note to self: bring some fucking perfume to spray on EVERYONE around me at the next concert I go to. Seriously, wear deodorant people!

Damn it feels good to be home. Rolled in just after 2 am last night. I thought I was so tired and I would just go right to sleep... no way. I think all my caffeine kicked in because I was up til 4 am, then I couldn't sleep for a long time. It was that darn Viso we ran to get in Kennewick! We were so excited... we were looking for a Freddies or a 7-11 and gave up, then pulled into a gas station to switch drivers and Alex went to ask and came back out running and yelling, "Get back in the car, now!" haha it was 15 minutes until the Fred Meyer closed and we had to make it. We got a really funny picture of us all excited.

Interesting things about the drive: We went to the Mall of America and then a quick drive to Eden Prairie Center (as in the mall from Mallrats!!!). They have completely redone that mall since 95 when the movie came out... I really couldn't recognize anything... but I did walk in and shout, " I love the smell of commerce in the morning!" I'm also fairly certain we found the location of the 3D sailboat image and quite possibly the bench that Trish the Dish was sitting on. Sadly there were no chocolate covered pretzels for me to buy. :-( But oh man, I can't believe I was actually there! Another mission on the awesome list accomplished! (note to self, create awesome list) After this, the big leg of our journey commenced.

So we were in the car for a day and a half straight... Fargo looks like a pretty cool town, especially since they had this place called Space Aliens Grill & Bar that was super rad. We had to stop and take pics and then we decided to sit and get drinks and fries. I mainly wanted to because they had the Leinenkugel's Honey Weiss on tap, which came in a huge mug and was only $3.49. In Montana, I got pulled over... and got a ticket for going 10 over. The best part was how much the ticket was for... $20!! Seriously, only 20 bucks! I had to pay it right away though in either cash or check, but damn... I didn't mind. It makes for a funny story. Montana... ugh. We were driving through Montana ALL DAY LONG, and then, as we are approaching the end of the state, it starts to snow. It didn't want us to leave! It wasn't the worst snow I have driven in, but it was still a pain in the ass. Once we entered into Idaho it disappeared pretty quick.

So what's on the agenda the rest of the week? Don't have to work 'til Friday at 4 pm! Tuesday or Wednesday I'm gonna hang with Chase... Wednesday night is the They Might Be Giants concert... and I told Jake I would come visit him in Eugene, but I'm not sure what day to do that. Maybe Thursday then drive home Friday morning...?

I guess it's time to start going through my pictures...

So I'm sitting here at Alex's Uncle's computer, waiting for everyone to get up and get themselves together. We gotta pack our stuff back up, get breakfast, load up the car then hit the road to Rockford to see Stevie. Alex and Stevie have plans to trip, and I was supposed to be in on this plan, but I have decided not to. I think I still would if it didn't last 8 hours plus... meh.

Yesterday we drove all over Chicago in the convertible with the top down. The weather was really great - no clouds, bright and sunny... Perfect for seeing the Bean! After that we had to go to a cell phone shop so Alex could try and fix his uncle's phone. :-P Riding the L came next, then we walked the Magnificent Mile and took a bunch of night pictures. Saw the water tower, which was the only thing left of Chicago when it burned because it wasn't made of wood... then deep dish pizza! Oh man it was so delicious! Mmmmm I wish I could have some more of it for breakfast... anyway, Alex tells me that everyone is up...? Time to blow this popsicle stand, or at least turn the heat on so it can start melting.

Hungry!

Perfect!


Chillin' in the graveyard at Keith's place!


Random awesome party photo from Luke's party.

So Halloween was fucking epic this year. It certainly made up for last year's uneventfulness. Friday I went to Luke's party and got somewhat trashed. Chase said I passed out leaning on him for about 20-40 minutes. I almost vomited, but thankfully Chase stood outside with me away from the crowd until I felt better. Stupid jello shots... I think my stomach digested the jello all at once sending a nice rush of alcohol into my system. There was also a trampoline involved. I am so surprised I did not throw up! :-D It was a good thing Jared rode with me because when the party ended I definitely couldn't drive and he was sober at that point. Saturday, Halloween, I attended 3 parties and then ended up at Ground Kontrol with Alex and Derick. We were on our way to party number 4, Megan's party, when she called saying that everyone had gone home and unless we were close by we shouldn't come anymore. :-( Oh well. Must do something fun with Megan sometime though! Ground Kontrol was awesome though. Derick and I played Area 51 for what seemed like forever. Man my arm was hurting from that... we also tag teamed Discs of Tron, Ninja Turtles and Ghosts n Goblins. While we were finding parking, we saw another Beetlejuice and Lydia! Our costumes were much better quality though, IMO. The night ended at Alex's with us watching Evil Dead and enjoying some tree rape and dismemberment. lawlz.

I am Lydia from Beetlejuice and my buddy Derick is Beetlejuice! Both costumes fully constructed from scratch and full of awesome! I'm actually finishing up some of it now. I just gotta run in to Bishop's or something and get my bangs trimmed today before Luke's party. Then I can spend the rest of my day on hair and makeup.

Heh, I never use the writer's block thing, but today it looked good.

So as we all know now, I broke up with Jordan. Every time people ask why, I can't really give them a good answer. I just needed to. I did way too much hopping from one boyfriend to the next to the next. I need to just be single and alone for a while. No relationships for me, not now. A lot of you may not understand this, but I do. At first I wasn't so sure I had made the right decision and it did hit me hard, but now I think I'm on the right path. I had some issues with Jordan that I just couldn't really talk about. It wasn't the he annoyed me, but more that I was drowning in his problems. I know I need someone who is independent and has a life outside of me. I think we are really in different places and I'm not sure if this would be different if we weren't.

Now, the topic of friends. I have made many a new and awesome friend lately. And I have also felt more detached from close friends. More specifically Jen... :-/ I'm not quite sure what to say about it, but I guess I expected a more supportive reaction from her. I know she was sick and all, but damn. At least Keith asked me how I was and if I was ok. Not that I'm comparing her to Keith... but you know, I decided to tell Jen that I went on a date and was met with criticism. Ok, so I went on a date. I'm allowed to date! I said no relationships, but dates are fine. And I had a great time. (This was, by no means, the reason behind the break-up, I can assure you this. This all started ocurring post-break.) I thought I might share my good time with Jen, since she has met this guy before, but all she could really say was that she didn't think he was my type. First of all, I don't have much of a "type," and second of all, if I did have a type it would geeks. Anyways! The way I was just brushed off really struck a cord, and then I get this mini-speach about how she "doesn't get it." She says, "I'm a relationship girl, always have been. I guess I don't understand." So what!? Maybe that's what you are, but that doesn't mean that everyone else is, or that everyone else has to be just like you. It's good to have diversity amongst friends! So you liked Jordan, everyone did, especially my mom. Lord, the look my mom gave me when she found out... another story! I'm glad that you want to maintain a friendship with Jordan, but don't forget about your friendship with me. Maybe you don't understand my reasons, but you could at least support my decision and be happy for me. This is the first time in a long time that I made a break-up decision that wasn't based on me wanting to step right into something new or because I had been hurt terribly by the guy. This is my real time to heal, and I need it. I really need it. If you can't handle that, then GTFO mon ami.

And now Jordan, again. Things have been weird (naturally), but I know he'll be ok eventually. I'm glad to see that he is actually getting out and making friends. I am leaving all decisions of whether or not to see me or hang out with me up to him. Sometimes he wants to and things seem fine enough, but then it turns the other way. I can handle that, I can. What I can't and do not want to handle are angry comments and desperation. Take saturday night as a starter. He texts me asking if I was going to be at Out-a-bounds, I tell him I have other plans. He was invited out by Jen and went with her and Kate and Kaya. I received no such invite, so why would I be there? Monday Jordan texts me in a mood. Starts complaining about how we don't hang out... but hello, you haven't asked me to hang out! This turned into a "Why do I bother, it's not going to make a difference." I understand he might be angry with me, but I just don't want to hear it. I don't want the criticism. I feel bad enough that I hurt someone, I don't need you to make me feel worse. Any of you. And if you give me crap about how I'm "busy" you can just shove it. Guess what, I AM BUSY. I make plans and I get booked up. If you don't get in there before that happens, you're out of luck.

Lastly, my harem. This is the weird part about being single. Once I'm single, people want me, and they let me know this. It's kind of unsettling sometimes. Especially when it's an ex from 5 years ago saying that I'm the one thing he regrets doing wrong. Or the other ex just wanting to have some fun. This does not include all the random people who suddenly have confidence to try and touch my leg or what have you. I'm all for flirting, but damn. It's a little overwhelming. I'm not sure if it's because of some phobia about being touched by people I don't know, or if it's just because I don't quite understand why they want me. It sounds strange coming from me, since I seem so confidant all the time, but I'm more insecure than people think. I know I'm awesome and all, but I don't always understand why people like me beyond that. Does that make sense? Sometimes I understand it, other times I just don't.

Meh... I need to get up and get dressed so I can carve my pumpkins before going out tonight. Until next post, same Heather time, same Heather channel!

One hour left in the day to wish Derick a happy birthday!!! Heehee... So yeah, Happy Birthday to Beetlejuice from Lydia. :-P

Life has become a series of status updates. This is what Facebook does to you. It seems I have become uncomfortable writing on here, mostly because there are select people reading that I don't want to upset. I am going to stop caring. My journal, my thoughts... if you don't like it then GTFO. I'm starting to feel like a shut-in because I don't talk to anyone about what's going on with me. A sentence or two just doesn't do my feelings justice. I feel like I have slipped away and now I don't know how to talk about things that matter. *sigh*

This changes. This is your warning. Matters of the heart start after this.

[Insert heartfelt, thoughtful post about my feelings here.]

Yeah, that's really all I got right now. Sorry folks!

In other news, went to the pumpkin patch today! I think I will try and carve my Domo pumpkins on Thursday night after work if anyone wants to help out. Also saw Paranormal Activity. It was entertaining and overall I think I liked it, but so not what I was expecting.

I'm really excited to go to the Children's Museum tomorrow with Damien and my mom and Bree. Curiosity over what the place is like today has plagued me since my childhood. I used to love that place so much. My favorite part was the mock grocery store where you could play as a shopper or a store keeper. Perhaps a bit ironic considering I work at Fred Meyer. Plus I really want to spend more quality time with the nephew, especially since I had to miss his birthday party on Sunday. Better make sure my battery is charged for my camera!

Not much longer til Chicago... soooo need a vacation... I also really need to remember to go and buy tickets for They Might Be Giants!

About to see Paranormal Activity. It's debunking time! lawlz

This is only a test.

Wednesday I have a meeting/tour at Aveda and then afterward I think I will go laptop shopping. Anyone free that might wanna come? You may have to come to both... I'm probably just gonna stop at Best Buy on my way home and take a look at what they have and the prices.

Also, I seem to have started a texting word association game with my new buddy Adam from Saturday night. It has been very entertaining thus far... and damn do I feel clever!

Also also, wtf, why am I so annoyed with every little thing lately? This shit gets to your head eventually.

Oh October, how I love thee... Your days are still warm and sunny but your nights are blankets and cuddly.

I've been over to Hawthorne a couple times in the last few days and scored major both times. First time I got an awesome snowboarding coat for $18 and a pair of Tripp pink plaid capris for $10 at Buffalo Exchange. I also got a great deal on a zebra print mini skirt at Naked City (30 marked down from 50) and managed to replace my fuzzy pink cat hat with a new, slightly better one from the Metro. The old one was getting so dingy and dirty and the new one is actually cut different so it fits better and the ears are bigger and more noticeable. :-P

Today I scored bigtime on dollar cds. Stereogram is some cool shit. Also found a Goops cd and a Treble Charger cd I didn't have. Note to self, make Keith burn me new copy of Treble Charger cd that was stolen from my car last winter. I think I should spend a chunk of time tomorrow listening to all the cds I bought on a whim cause they looked interesting. Maybe I will find something as awesome as the Groovie Ghoulies (also a dollar find).

Tomorrow I really need to take care of things... like my room, which got all messed up in the great tornado of Heather searching for a missing hair clip last week. Laundry is up high on the list too. Hmm I could go in to Freddies tomorrow and get free lunch...

I have decided that with this year's tax return I am going to buy a pink DSi. That and either set aside a good chunk of money towards a new laptop or just buy a new laptop right away. I need one pretty bad... this one sucks balls these days. I have had it so long now and it has been used so much... I have even worn through the finish and created a dent on the mouse clicker! I'm thinking something super cheap but still good quality. Something I could get 2 to 3 years out of, if not longer. Any recommendations? No Vista, I don't want it to have even touched the laptop...

WHY IS MYSPACE SO FUCKING RETARDED?!?!?!?!?! Goddamn you, Internet, why must you piss me off like this?? Now my finger hurts from slapping my laptop. No wonder it's dying on me!

I'm hungry and frustrated and I have problems I am not sure I will ever understand. BIG FAT FUCKING SIGH. Why can't I just make sense out of this nonsense?

Trip the light fantastic!

Maybe all those hippies were right with the whole free love thing... Let your love loose, let it fly, let is soar! Send it up to space in a rocket and watch it break the atmosphere. Climb a mountain, swim the seas, do whatever you goddamn please. Take me up, take me down, I've been all around. Found my way to that one but when all is said and done..... Well, I guess that means there isn't anything left to say!

ha.

But really, follow the link up top, stare into oblivion, wander through all of space and time, then come back and tell me a tale.

There are crumbs on my bed, time to let the pillow hit my head. I snooze, maybe I lose, but what did I choose?

Anyone else remember when I used to end every journal entry with "Same Heather time, same Heather channel"? I doubt it.

My laptop may actually be fucked. I might need to get a new hard drive for it, which will be considerably cheaper than a whole new laptop. Maybe with next year's tax return I will buy a new cheap laptop, because by then they won't come with Vista anymore! Gonna see if Jen can give more life to this one for the time being though.

Also... I miss fun. I wanna go out more and do more exciting things again. I'm sick of sitting at home all the time! I'm sick of "I'm too tired, sorry, can't come out with you..." Even if you have to work early, that doesn't mean you can't indulge every now and then and just have some fun!

So I'm sitting here on the intarwebz and hear my cat whining. It sounds like he's on the roof so I get up to check, since he likes to come to my window and whine for me to come get him down. Well, he wasn't on the roof... yet! He was on top of the bears and I was like, "No! Don't jump on the roof! Don't do it!" and then he jumps on the roof. He gets stuck up there because he either can't remember how to get down or he is too afraid to get down on his own. *shakes head*

Now he's at my window and won't shut up.

Google adsense on LJ... make money by displaying ads on my journal? Damn this is tempting, but I know ads would be really annoying... I wonder what sort of profit it would end up being...

Gotta buy plane tickets real soon for Chicago. I'm excited to go but not excited to be spending a lot of money. Need to talk to bank. I'm at the point where I'm so stressed about money that I'm not so sure I should go on this trip anymore! I could really use the money I set aside for the plane ticket to get stuff fixed on my car... I hope this works itself out!

Why do I stay up so late when I have to work at 10 am??

I had some inspiration today while filling some bulk bins at work to make soup with red lentils... I'm thinking of starting from scratch like I do with most other things and just throwing in a bunch of veggies, broth, etc. I'm undecided though... Stacy should be coming over tomorrow too so who knows. Gonna clean out my closet some for a garage sale!

Tonight though... I kinda want to do something fun. Maybe I will call up a couple people and see if they want to go out. Anyone up for karaoke? Yeah yeah we are all broke I know, but whoever said you had to buy a lot of drinks?

10-hour day at work today... They said I could put in as much overtime as I wanted! But yeah, I am TIRED oh man. A couple weeks from now I will be getting a record low on my scheduled hours - 21. Thankfully Shannon called the store and I am picking up an extra 12 hours at Hollywood doing freight!

I want ice cream, but my mom ate the last of mine last night. I wish I could afford to have my own place... That won't happen until I can get myself through beauty school and snag a job at a salon that will hopefully pay better. Or maybe I should do what these damn Education Connection commercials keep telling me to do - get connected for free (free!). I see that commercial way too much. I can even sing the whole thing at random!

"I was working for an hourly wage. Went to high school didn't do great... still i gotta make more cash, more education is what I'm lookin at. When I get a degree I will make a bigger salary.........." *facepalm*

I need to go to bed...

Go to bed, Heather! I'm actually pretty tired and I have to be at work at 10... I spend way too much time playing games on facebook. I seem to have settled into an evening routine when I am at home. Make food and play Sorority Life, Fish World, Yoville all night. I get pretty excited when How Clean is Your House comes on BBCA (usually 1 or 2 for an hour) then I sometimes go to bed after that. It passes the time, but it's monotonous. I should be reading or watching a movie instead of being crouched over my laptop until my back hurts.

Also, too many dead celebrities in one year! It's the apocalypse OMG!

I love coming home to find broken glass all over my bedroom floor and my bed SOAKED with water. *SARCASM* Damn that Princess Leia! Luckily I have an extra pillow I can use while my normal one dries out. I'm settling for laying a towel down on the wet corner since there's nothing I can do about it. At least it wasn't milk this time! Maybe the glass wouldn't have broken if I didn't still have that hammer in my room, I think it landed right on it.

The beach was fun. Pascual and Sara seemed very impressed with the west coast. It was such a beautiful day, the view from the Astor Column was perfect. I got pretty addicted to this block game at the arcade in Seaside and got a bunch of tickets. Five dollars on games resulted in a lei, 2 packets of Fun Dip and some hot pink plastic teeth. heh.

Ugh, I hate Kidz Bop commercials. I hate the concept of Kidz Bop. What's wrong with letting your kids listen to regular music? I need to go to bed before I see too many more late-night ads...

I love haircuts... back to semi-regular bangs for a while I think! Plus I am enjoying the extra daytime hanging out with Stacy that we've been doing lately. It was also good to talk to Terri about the world of hair design. Now to choose the right school and get started! I like that as soon as someone hears what I plan to become they automatically think, "Oh yeah, I can really see you doing that!" :-) All I really need is to maintain good motivation!

Going to the beach tomorrow/today with Jen, Pascual & Sara and maybe Tyler. Need to get up around 8:30 so I can be at Jen's at 9:30 and we can leave at 10. I should go to bed... :-/ Buuut I should pack myself a day bag and get a snack first.

Saw 9 tonight. Very impressed!

I forgot that I was gonna take a shower before work and spent all my time on the internet... oops.

So, Mt Angel Oktoberfest is coming up... anyone want to join me on either Thursday the 17th or Friday the 19th?

Seeing a monster f-ing huge spider in my room ruins the whole concept of sleep for me. This was last night... still paranoid! I'm even checking under the bed with a flashlight and have my comforter tucked into the sides of my bed. I'm pathetic. It gets better though! I'm not even 100 percent sure it was real! Yeah I was wide awake, etc. but when I thought I had it squashed there was no evidence it was ever there. Maybe tonight I can sleep a little better. Maybe tonight I won't wake up a dozen times feeling like something is crawling on me! Maybe I will be paranoid all week!

Late night tv sucks. I just can't sit through infomercials like I used to! I miss the turbo cooker... Also, True Blood OMFG serious win! Can't believe there is only one more episode in the season! Evan Rachael Wood makes a great vampire Queen. She appears to have put on a little weight, but HOT DAMN that is some gooooood weight!

Ok I need to attempt to sleep now... just gotta check under the covers to make sure there are no silver-dollar-sized spiders in my bed!