Log in

No account? Create an account
29 April 2008 @ 06:52 pm
I felt like listening to the song "Silently Screaming" by Serial Joe... Is that what I'm doing? Silently screaming to myself. One side of me screams that I'm an idiot and I miss him, the other side of me screams that I need this... I need distance. But I don't want distance. I want stability. No mood swings making me cry. Some control. So many things... I wish I could just sort myself out and piece everything back together. I want to be there for you... I want to put you back together. Just give me time...
I'm feeling...: crappycrappy
Jen Bushsuperfrau on April 30th, 2008 04:36 am (UTC)
We're all fools for love, Heather. Just remember that he is hurt, but right now he probably needs some time and distance to heal on his own. I have a feeling that when he's ready, he'll let you know.

What you both need is stability, space, and time. Don't feel crappy for doing what you think is best for you. Find out who you are inside, and make peace with your own heart. It's harder than you think some times. But, it's something that you owe to yourself, to Nathan, and to anyone else that you ever have a serious relationship with.

Sometimes, it's scary being alone. But, I want you to try doing some things for me. Stop screaming at yourself, and try to believe in yourself the way I believe in you.
Nathannatetheoriginal on April 30th, 2008 05:40 am (UTC)
We'll see how things go. I might need some time too... I'm heart broken, but I haven't lost my self respect yet. Either way I'll be ok... but I think I'd like to be more than ok.... I'm sure we'll get a chance to talk about it more down the road.