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14 December 2009 @ 02:32 pm
an entry that has taken 2 days to articulate properly  
Why do I never have the right words to describe how I feel? Forlorn... confused... happy... unsure... impatient... All of the above. Life is good, I can't really argue that too much, but... I don't know what the "but" is, yet it lingers in the back of my mind. Other things that plague my mind: beauty school, Keith moving to Kansas City, getting a new laptop, and Chase. Mostly Chase. I can't help it! I really like him... and that's kind of scary... and I don't know what's going on or what exactly we're doing, but that's ok. As much as I would like to know for my own peace of mind, I know it really should remain undefined. I am in no rush. It's hard to take things slow when you see an awesome potential for greatness though. But that potential could just as easily go another way. Some people can be or seem passionate in all the right ways sometimes, but if you're not the right person at the right time, that passion can go untapped or end up being a facade to pass the time. The hardest part is figuring out where you stand in the romantic equation. The thrill of it all is what keeps me going!

Eric asked me last night how I see the future. Right now I see it being wide open and full of potential. It's good to be optimistic! Life is opening up and I really hope that I can make the most of it.
I'm feeling...: contemplativecontemplative